I will be dealing with some important matters in my life aka: F U T U R E
I guess I won’t be online as much as I used to.
Everything is really happening so fast. I hope everything will work out fine.
I trust You Lord…With all my heart and my mind.
Indifference is addicting.
I should get a dose at least once a day.
I just noticed this now. When you write new post, there are no longer other options like make the words bolder, or undeline it…i dunno…
Gahhhhhhhh!!! I suck at codes. Now, my fonts would clearly be as boring as me. :]
Anyway, I went to the dentist and got my teeth cleaned, then I had 6 teeth restoration filling. It was freaking uncomfortable. But my mouth feels so clean right now.
=P
There are things that you did not plan but they happened anyway. There are things that we could not control. There are things that as much as you want them to remain as they are, you have to let them go. Opportunities are difficult to recognize. Sometimes, when you are presented with several options, all of them with favorable ending, how would you choose?
I hate choosing and I’m a big fan of compromising. But there are things that cannot be compromised. Then the decision making will narrow down to the pro’s and con’s. To take risk is almost suicide. We maybe hesitant to jump on a train with unknown destination, but when we think about it, we do not really know what’s at the end if we do not ride it now.
We make big decisions in life. Some of those decisions led us to regret but at the end of it, we actually gained something…we learned and we became a changed person.
I made a big decision last Friday. I am uncertain of what will happen because I decided on this. but I can’t back out now. I need to see what’s out there. I may risk my life, my comforts, my everything to start anew in a foreign place. I am still confused. part of me does not want to let go of what I have here…but I need to loosen my grasp with what is already known to me, I have to be brave in taking the plunge…I am in the middle of the crossroads…and I’m choosing what I think is the best right now.
I was supposed to start watching my Death Note DVD but I fell asleep while texting some of my friends.
Yeah, I’m lame like that…
But then, I started watching it just now and I’m hooked. L and Kira are both intelligent, cunning and sly.
Finding the ‘RIGHT’ moment is hard. You might not even recognize it. It’s as vague as it sounds, it’s as ambiguous as it implies.
Then, do ‘right’ times exist?
If you believe that they do exist then, there is indeed ‘right’ times.
Funny thing is, our biggest enemy is ourselves. We believe what we only choose to believe.
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I felt like I wasted my entire day.
I am tired.
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I will start reading my 7th Paulo Coelho book entitled “The Witch of Portobello” tonight. Oh, wells… maybe not.
I’m going to watch my Death Note DVD.
Okay. So I did not enrol for IELTS review classes. I actually went to an interview for a job somewhere in KSA. My mother was reluctant to agree with me, but at the end she agreed anyway.
It was a very casual interview. I was not nervous at all. I even wore casual clothes.
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I accompanied my friend who’s job hunting. It was hot and well…hot. Because the glaring sun seem to love us.
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everything is going so fast, I took the exam last Oct. 31, I came back and things happen crazily. My friend’s bag + tuition money got snatched, I had my interview for KSA today and was approved, I was supposed to enroll but I did not, my friend is asking back the money I borrowed last month and I don’t have sufficient funds to actually pay her back, and today, I learned that my other friend is engaged. WTH?! Is the world really going too fast or am I just so slow I can’t even keep up with what’s around me???
WHEW!!!
I’m in Bigbang phase right now. From the moment I woke up, their song “Lies” kept on popping in my head.
And I kept on postponing dealing with reality.
Maybe tomorrow if my clouded mind suddenly clears up which is very much unlikely.
But then, it’s worth a try.
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I’ve already decided. I’m going to enroll this coming Thursday.
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My friend’s bag last night was snatched. She was riding a jeepney when the two snatchers suddenly pulled her bag, she tried pulling it back but one of the snatchers has a knife and she was mildly wounded. When she sent me a message telling me her ordeal, I was shocked and guilty because she came from my house before she was attacked. I told her to take a cab instead but she kept on saying that it’s expensive, I didn’t know that she has her tuition money with her and her enrolment is today. But I’m glad she was fine. She said she’s scared. I think I would be too, in fact any one would be scared, what if the attackers had gun? She didn’t even report it to the police. She could have reported it. It is an established fact that nighttimes were not especially safe and once again, it is proven to be true.
I’m done with my NCLEX. So, what’s next? I honestly do not know what to do with my life right now. Can I just be a bum? No. I can’t be. People have expectations of me. But I do not live with people’s expectation either. I just go with the flow never really thinking about the things that I should do. This week I plan to enroll myself for IELTS review classes. It was the plan last month. But now, I don’t know if it’s still in my plan. I get confused and doubtful about what I should do with my life. Maybe I should just go along with my previous plan. Mother said she’s going to pay for my review classes and I still have enough money for enrolment, I have a job for my allowance and I am determined to have my IELTS exam taken this year. I have barely a month. And I have less than 24 hours to decide. Can I decide by then?
I got back from Manila with the following problems at home:
1.) Our refrigerator broke down;
2,) Left overs were scattered in the sink;
3.) the Curtains were not yet replaced.
-SIGH-
And now I have colds and cough and my wisdom tooth is starting to hurt like hell.
-SIGH-
I should really decide now. How soon is now?
I just got back from my NCLEX.
It was the most difficult exam I’ve ever had in my entire life. I even cried after the exam.
I hope I passed.
