What better way there is to say goodbye to someone?
Which is more plausible:
Just disappear from the person’s life like you never existed at all despite
being linked together for all your life?
Or say the proper goodbye speech, disregarding the fact that goodbye speeches
are nothing but mere concrete evidence that there will be total separation, in
mind and body?
Is there any right time at all to say goodbye?
Then who would suffer more, the one who’s gonna leave or the one being left behind?
or would the feelings be mutual?
If that’s the case then, why say goodbye at all?
As peter pan said “Goodbye means going away, and going away is forgetting”
—————————
If all else comes to worse,
I’m willing to let go and give it a rest.
I don’t want to think badly of it,
But it got to happen somehow, one way or another.
That’s the problem,
As much as it scares me,
As much as I want to hold on to it and never let go,
I MUST—with so much difficulty—loosen my fingers,
Untangle my hold.
It’s the only thing that seem rational to do.
It’s early to say what the future holds,
But I want to prepare myself—
Mentally & emotionally.
It would probably hurt more than I can imagine,
But I know it’ll pass.
Because distractions will numb me,
Or perhaps, tight schedules would make me forget.
Either way,
I know the memory will fade.
Until it becomes surreal, even to me
Despite the experience first-hand.
Until, I too…will wither,
Among the dust.
——————-
If i could tune out these needless worries,
I would.
It’s a struggle not to think.
Distractions are only good for as long as they could last
Which is actually—for the briefest time only.
Then the anxiety would find its way back
—Like a homecoming.
It doesn’t help that the weather seem to agree
with my chaotic brain impulses.
Maybe I should escape escape the reality I’m in right now.
