TIRED

I was planning on buying “Vampire Knight” but found the one I’ve been looking
for since last year. It’s an old anime titled “His and Her Circumstance”. It was nice,
I’m starting to read the manga version too.

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I feel very unhappy yesterday, because I realized that for the first time
since the start of the year, I haven’t felt so much frustration than I did yesterday,
What had happened? I also want to know why. Maybe because I was tired, or maybe
there was too much restrictions on my part. I get frustrated with little things
because I can’t function the way I want to. I dislike my preceptor’s methods,
I dislike her attitude. I don’t want to learn under such a person because I
feel like I can’t learn efficiently at all. Sure I am nothing but a novice,
but I was never the one who backed down on learning new things. I’m taking really, really
deep breaths now, to let go of my frustrations and welcome tomorrow with a good feeling.

I must change the way I think about everything: the ward, the people and the patients.

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In my all of my very short nursing career, I really dislike taking vital signs.
I hate everything about it. But it’s a part of assessment, one must never skip it.
But that doesn’t change the fact that I hate it. A lot.

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My partner in duties is a very hesitant person,I end up giving him instructions
which makes me bossy. He doens’t take initiative and follows me around. If I have
my way, I’d like to do it alone. I can’t manage my time well because I have to
think of him and my preceptor. But tomorrow I plan to do things at my own pace,
it’s either he keep up with me or do it on his own. He’s starting to get on my nerves.
I don’t want start hating people just after my resolve of being happy.

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I missed ICU so much.I missed everything about it. That being said,
I guess that what makes my transition at ward difficult and frustrating.