This is what I'm currently addicted to in the net

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Patient X was transferred to ICU, I think I’m going to visit his watcher later.

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On the lighter note:

Dara Park: The Fall Goddess

Happy Birthday Sandara Park!!!

Happy Birthday to my wonderful grandmother.

HAPPY 88th BIRTHDAY NANAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Jade,

We’ve been through a lot. You have been feeling lonely and alone for the longest time but I hope you know that I care a lot about you. And as I promised, I’ll always be your safe harbor. Missing you so bad

Love,

Yan

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Dear High School Barkadas: (Clockwise 1st pic) Richie, Tata, Tiyoy and  Pre (Clockwise 2nd pic) Butchit, Totet and Ja,

We were so young then, naive and so carefree. Look at us now, busy trying to play the role of a grown-up laid down upon us. Our adventures and misadventures in high school felt surreal now. Did the time fly by really fast? It was so blurry I didn’t notice it, and now when I look back, I’m glad I’ve met you guys. We were quite a group weren’t we? Everything was so memorable, the first hang over, parental fights, friendship fights and other things that seem so silly now. I miss us. I miss our nonsense discussions about our teachers, our cheating plans, our weekend illegal drinking binges, our night ice cream drives. I simply miss us. And though I do not wish for the time to turn its back to the past, I wish we can still do things like that now, but I’m afraid it won’t come. Because each of us had our own plans, our own dreams to pursue and our roles to fill. Sometimes, when I get tired of the adult world I want to go back to the way we were before. I wish. Take care guys. I miss you all heaps.

Love,

Yan

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Elena

Nyzel

Jen, Nikki, Nyzel, me

Nyzel, Fredchell, Joanne, Elena, Nikki, me, Talie

Dear College Friends,

Where are you now?

Elena: I haven’t heard a lot from you and I miss you sooo much. I miss our heart to heart talks. You’re one person who could always make me feel better despite of how upset I am. You always knock sense into my sometimes daft brain and I really appreciate that. Let us meet soon!!!

Nyzel: It’s been soooo long since the last time I saw. I miss you! You’re thoughtfulness is one of your charms and I sooo miss it!

Talie: You’re sonear (with pun intended :p) yet so far??? Tal, I missed your corny jokes and I miss the way you say “I miss you more”

Ate Charms: I hope to see you soon!

Fredchelle: Let us meet soon eh? Niña’s growing up so big and cuddly and cute. Ninang misses her too!

Jen: I miss your daftness.

Ate Han: Contact me!!!

Lovely: Send me some dollars! Seriously though, I miss talking to you. I miss hearing about your love life, but then you’re happily married now. Send some love, love!

Love,

Yan

October 30, 2009

@ GLAMOUR : CRAB ALL YOU WANT!!!

BEFORE

YUMMMMYYY CRABBIES!!!

AFTER

ALL SHELLS...if only these could be eaten too :p

November 6, 2009

@ Arturo’s

I think this is Pasta in Carbonara Sauce

Chicken Melts. (Super <3 it!!!)

I think this is the Ham & Bacon Sandwich (I forgot)

Another pasta

I have been taking my vitamins regularly,

And surprisingly,

I have colds today.

It hasn’t been that long since my feverish episodes and this had to happen.

Dear Patient X,

It’s like a deja vu all over again.

I don’t know what to say to make both of you feel better, but I hope my sincere caring is enough to at least make you feel you are not alone.

I want to say that things happen, that sometimes these things happen so quickly we can’t even say “SLOW DOWN!”. I don’t know how to say things that can assure you that everything will be all right because at this point in your life, you’d say it’s a bull. For now, it might be…There are no guarantees in this life and we all know that the surest thing is we will hit the dead end at some point.

I pray that you will have the strength and accept these things. I feel sad whenever I see you all weak yet struggling to fight a losing battle.

I feel for you.

For now, be comforted with the thought that there are people who care.

-Yan

I seriously need to stop procrastinating.

I’m loving being lazy a lot.

Today is Wednesday and tomorrow is another day of reality.

STOOOOPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!

Move it!!!!!!!!!!

(Okay, that sounds totally weird.)

I’m talking to myself. Gahhhh!!!!!!!!!! Do the laundry already you freaking, lazy girl!!!!

I love Tuesdays.

I wish everyday is Tuesday.

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I super, super love tumblr. I’m tumblr addicted. But not so many original content on my tumblog. I am very infatuated with tumblr, but I’m in a long-term relationship with my wordpress.

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I will post some of my print screens from my dashboard, because I’m bored.

And this one’s for my grandmother, my mother, the guy who sat across from me last night, the beggars when the stop light turns red…

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Dear Self,

You are more lucky than you thought you could ever be. I think that’s enough reason to be happy. Remember, YOU ARE LUCKY.

And even though you have a lot of questions you want to ask, that you seek answers to, that confuse the heck out of you…someday, when you least expect it, everything will make sense. For now, just be content by answering your questions with “just because”. PERIOD.

I think it’s time to sail away from my safe harbor and see the world. Because :

Love,

Your Self

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I don’t who to give credits for the pictures & photos but I got these from these tumblog:poeticheartache, icanread,mrschanandler-bong

I came from a noc shift last night ( I was the charge nurse). Then went to sleep at around 10am.

One of my pet peeves is being woken up in the middle of my sleep, and this time Nang Badang was the culprit. I am having a hard time falling asleep when I come from noc duty, and today was not any better. So she called me around 1pm and I grumpily answered. I dropped the call. I was too sleepy to have coherency.

Now I feel guilty.

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Talked to some random people @ fb. He didn’t get my humor. That’s a first.

Dear Self,

Someday, everything’s gonna make sense.

You have been through a lot, you have endured tears, betrayal and hurt for the last 24 years and here you are, trying to be some wisecrack. Fact of the matter is no one got your back, people come and go, as these people become your friends, at some point they will hurt you and leave you alone. Even your family will not spare you from broken hopes. So, be strong. Because as understanding as your friends are, they will not  ALWAYS be there.

It’s perfectly normal to feel sad. And it’s perfectly healthy too. You can’t be a walking sunshine at all times you know. You keep on making your friends happy while inside you’re a mess. I think it’s all right to let those tears fall and just let it flow because:

Love,

Your Self

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photocredits@tumblr:fuckyeahappy,lovegeneration,taintedphase